Sunday, January 22, 2006
through the course of the week i've started to feel dead in sajc. maybe it's cos my og was full of nice people and suddenly when we got seperated i got to meet some not so friendly people. i think i should focus more on studying. when they're ready i'll be back.
till then i'll be waiting/reflecting. sajc band is nearing the centre of my life.
i'm heartened by the dedication and love from the seniors. i hope the j1 batch will be like them someday.
but anyway what i wanted to say was, after telling my brother about the things that happened this week and after he told me how saspop went and unconsciously lessened my uncertainties through talking rubbish, it seemed that there was more to sajc but i just had to give things a chance to happen. it seems elizabeth was right about my brother being a big influence on me being in sa.
anything can happen within these 2 weeks.
but if i stay on, it will be only for the band.
must be more serious. moses told bro i was torturable.
i'm drifting. i'm working on living my life as a living testimony for Him.
but sometimes i do some things that make me feel so bad.
in the morning i pray He'll guide me; use me and draw me near in his will.
and during the day i just sit back and watch people bitch.
each time i walk past morning worship, it gets easier.
but when i reflect, i want so bad for God to be proud of a child like me.
then i remember these things and realise, i'll never be worthy of His love no matter how good i am. still, i'll try. and i will be proud of myself someday.
so melodramatic.
i'm going to go study already.
have a good week.
this week was shit.
4:41 PM
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Sunday, January 08, 2006
My Jesus, My Saviour
Lord there is none like You
All of my days, I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love
My comfort, My shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath, all that I am
Never cease to worship You
Shout to the Lord, all the earth
Let us sing. Power and majesty, praise to the King.
Mountains bow down and the seas will roar
At the sound of Your name
I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love You, forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You.
this is it, study time's starting again. and our brain juices can stop fermenting.
have a good week (:
11:30 PM
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
sajc.
wow.
i have been rendered speechless.
a tribute to my og.how do i love thee? let me count the ways.
henceforth shall i warn thee, this may take many days.
but still can i perservere, for my will is strong
and ever ready will i be to conquer the list so long.
xiuhui the aunty, photographing everything in sight
thine antics made me giggle in the middle of the night
"stop" she exclaimed, after we did the hollerback cheer
"replay replay, let me videotape, look here."
unglamly covered in newspaper ink, we fleed like a rocket
and grudgingly she kept the canon in her pocket.
lynne poured chilli all over her chicken rice
and made the astounding discovery that it wasn't very nice.
she was almost going to swallow an ice skating rink,
but settled instead for a water chestnut drink.
sorry ah. i need to go out for a while to look for inspiration.
(:
sajc is sitting on the rocking chair..
mua. haha.
7:20 PM
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Monday, January 02, 2006
hello.
sad early old month to everyone alive. (((:
we get to report 2 minutes later than usual! which means two extra minutes of sleep which means two minutes to finish dying/running/drowning/falling in the nightmare which means there is actually a potential that i will wake up on the left side of the bed tomorrow.
which wont really come as that big a surprise, because i sleep on the left side of the bed. mom takes the right.
yeahh.
so.
cheers to two extra minutes!
hmm. we get to wear blue hairpins in sajc ehh what a considerable liberation. after 10 years of black tiny rubbberbands. and stiff black amah pins. i would much rather have substituted them for diaper safety pins, but then silver wasn't allowed too.
HAHA. so now, there are many more important things that i should be channeling my energy towards beside reminiscence, such as worrying about whether the skirt clips will not be reunited on my waist, or shuddering in anticipation of clarifying the myth that guys have kootus, or thinking up of retarded actions to represent my player during that concentration game that traumatised me during acjc's band prac.. or inventing unpronouncable names to introduce myself to PWUIMs (people who unintentionally irk me).
speaking of PWUIM names, i've thought so hard, but only came up with one flabbergasting wachamacallitomgitsnotevenaword.
palamagadadad.eh. it's a good start okay. PWUIMs usually cant pronounce words with more than one vowel, so i'm being merciful. i don't know what i'm preparing this for anyway; not one PWUIM has crossed my path before. still, better prepared than heck-cared.
at least it puts me on par with
moocheekoopalamiginit. almost. nearing the far. and i was further before. imagine. if you dare. oooooo.
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it's 2 minutes to 2200hrs now, and if i publish the post and off the computer in one minute i'll have another minute to brush my teeth and go to sleep and exactly 8 hours (and two minutes) to snooze. HMM.
good night, happy oging. ((: sad gnigo. gingo. ginko.
BYEBYE.
9:05 PM
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